Jake has taught me so much about life that I never knew about or never thought I could understand or live out. First and most of all he has completely transferred all of his ADD crazy energy and love for life to me and taught me how to appreciate the small things in life. The overall scheme of things may not look so bright at the moment but enjoying the little tiny "God-moments" that tend to be overlooked brings great joy among chaos (something I'm trying to remember right now!). Along with this Jake has helped me learn how to minimize my worry and anxiety. Yes it is natural to feel these emotions at time but the way I was going was very unhealthy and because of this I was not happy and enjoying life. God has used him to help me ease these feelings of tension and insecurity and instead use these sometimes intense moments to pause and realize what God is really trying teach me or how He is planning to use me through the instance which I almost always overlooked as I was freaking out.
Jake has enhanced almost every aspect of my life in some either big or small way and I am so appreciative to first and foremost God and secondly to Jacob. Our God is an awesome God and it is truly indescribable to live out mine and Jake's relationship completely for Him. That being said, there is a time and a season for everything and today marked our last day together for two and a half months while I work at Camp Geneva and he works in Orange City, Iowa at our college.
I was blessed to spend this whole past week with him as he took the week off from work (thank you to his boss Mike!!) and drove Jake back down to Orange City on Friday afternoon. We knew it would be an emotional yet fulfilling last weekend together and I wouldn't have traded it for anything. Our married friends Ben and Missy were kind enough to let me sleep in their apartment allowing me to have more time with Jake, instead of simply heading back home right after dropping him off. We had a blast and really truly enjoyed each other as we lived in the moments we had together. I sit amazed that everyday I am continuing to learn more about Jake and loving him more and more each day...truly an act of God.
As much as we were dreading it, today finally came and we both knew it was time to go were God has called each of us for this summer. Before we ate breakfast we prayed, as usual, and God brought the words to my mouth of "God please help us leave in peace." After this we both decided that would be our hope, that we would leave in peace and in joy knowing that everything would be more than okay. Somehow I managed to leave (an hour after I was intending...ahh goodbyes are so tough) and we both went on our way with heavy hearts.
I am so thankful for the place God has brought us to in this moment and where He will lead our relationship over this summer and in the future. We both completely trust each other and know that this will be an extremely difficult summer, yet a rewarding and growing one. I have such a strong feeling that God will transform us as individuals in new ways and bringing these changes back to the relationship will only make us stronger.
Man, I feel like I'm writing a eulogy or something haha. In the moment and I'm sure for many days throughout the summer I feel very sad and weighed down with missing Jake terribly and not experiencing everything with him as I am used to, but at the same time I have this weird joy and excitement to see how God will use each of us in our respected places. We both came to the realization that if we didn't go to where God is calling us, then we truly wouldn't be following God's perfect plan for our lives. Who are we to doubt God's perfect plan? Who are we to know what God is going to use this experience for? We are nobodies in this respect and for this I have peace in leaving my love for the summer, or 77 days as we are both counting them down!
Here are some pictures from our last few weeks together:
 |
| After a wedding Jake had to do sound for :) |
 |
| My Birthday!! |
 |
| Cooking dinner together! |
 |
| Spring at Northwestern |
 |
| Smoothie making time after a long rollerblade ride :) |
 |
| Rollerblading downtown! |
Our verses we are focusing on as a couple for the summer are as follows:
"If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose." -Philippians 2:1-2These verses are describing Christ's humility in the joy of serving others and this is Jake and my goal for our personal relationship and with those that we will be in contact with over the summer. If you feel so led, join with us in prayer for the next 77 days we will be apart!
No comments:
Post a Comment